If willpower were all it took…
I am sure that most of you will totally relate to this…
I have been sick for over a week – nothing major, just your average run of the mill end of summer cold, but wow, has it kicked my butt. After walking around in a decongestant fog for ten days, I am tired of being sick. I have spent the last week getting through my day job to come home exhausted and sit on the couch, a lump under an afghan, never far from my box of Puffs with lotion and cup of hot tea. I want to write, but cannot focus my brain. I want to read, but cannot focus my eyes. So I have sat and stared blankly at reruns of Alias on DVD (end of summer = no new TV) and felt like warmed over dog doo.
So I am putting my foot down. I am not going to be sick any longer. I am going to will myself to stop sniffling, sneezing, coughing, wheezing, not sleeping, and fuzzy-headed. Ah, that it were that easy, huh?
Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could climb out of our ruts, kick our own butts, and accomplish everything we wish to achieve just by willing it to happen?
Here, in no particular order, is the top ten list of things I want to will myself to do in addition to getting well…if time and talent (and willpower) were not an issue, of course!
- Get in shape (This is the most started and stopped resolution on my list)
- Eat healthier (I am better at this than I used to be, but…)
- Start a daily yoga practice (Hatha yoga – not hot yoga which sounds way too stressful)
- Play more violin and piano (I play both but am not proficient at either one!)
- Grow my own vegetables (I really don’t like to garden – I just like the idea of gardening!)
- Bake my own bread (I have made bread with success, but would love to do it every week!)
- Learn Italian and/or continue to learn Spanish (began in college and have had zero practice in since!)
- Sew and quilt more (not nearly enough time in my life to complete all the projects I want to.)
- Catch up on my reading (Ha! an impossible task! There are always more books on my list than I could ever finish.)
- Write more and write better (an obvious one)
I just rattled those off the top of my head. I am quite proud of myself that #10 did not come out as “get published.” I think that too many writers focus on that and miss the journey. Don’t get me wrong. The journey can be frustrating and exhausting, but it is also the best part. If I were to write just to get published, I think I would eventually find it to be an unfulfilling hobby. And not just because the road to publication is so long and fraught with peril. I think if I did not find joy in the simple pleasure of putting words on the page, I would not be able to continue following this dream. My dream is to be a writer, not just a published writer. Writing is the true reward – being published is just gravy! 🙂
What are some of the items on your list? Your “to do” list? The resolutions that appear year after year?