Catching Fireflies

finding magic along the way

You Are Here.

Lately, I have been feeling that life has derailed my writing.

I am making progress toward many of my life goals but the writing just doesn’t seem to be there. I can say I am busy, but by now most of you know how I feel about that excuse. I know deep down that we are all busy and we make room in our lives for what matters to us.

So am I to think that writing no longer matters to me? Have I achieved my dreams and reached my goals? I think not.

I think it comes down to being tired. Let’s face it. Each of us has only so much energy to devote to each day, and sometimes the 9 to 5, or 6 or 7, just wears us out. Sometimes, despite our best intentions, we are just too darn tired to pick up a pen. We arrive at the end of our work day thinking, phew, now I can paint or write or dream, and we find that the only thing we manage to do is nap.

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Recently, I came across an article in HuffPost that spoke to me of this very issue. It says in no uncertain terms that sometimes the time is just not right for our creative lives. Sometimes we have to pay the bills and clean the house. And we need to allow for that and forgive ourselves.

That is the key piece that I tend to forget. I get so worked up in not spending enough time and energy on my writing. I get stuck in ruts where I don’t do anything creative for weeks or months at a time – no crocheting, no quilting, no writing. And I feel used up and exhausted and uninspired.

And that is okay.

I need to forgive myself for these lulls and let them pass without judgement. I need to stop bashing myself mentally for wasting time. We cannot solve these lulls by checking off a list of how-to-woo-the-muse or how-to-create-a-masterpiece-in-72-hours. They pass when they pass.

“Things are dark until they’re not.” I love that. We are always so busy trying to force our lives to be what we think they should be that we forget that they are what they are. This is your life. Wherever you are in the process of creating your dream. You are here.

You-are-here

6 Comments

  1. charliebritten

    Agree totally, Cheryl. I often feel too tired to write, because I, stupidly, leave writing to the evening, after I have done everything else. I know I ought to reverse my day but it isn’t always possible.

    • I know what you mean! The idea of getting up even earlier so I have time to write before the day gets out of hand just makes me tired! 😴

  2. I wholeheartedly agree with you on this Cheryl. Funnily enough I have just finished a piece similar to this but about being too lazy to write. Life just seems too hectic at times, what with work and domestic chores, to find the time or energy to write like we would want to. It is such a shame at times but I think you touch upon a very important part of it – not being too hard on yourself when this happens. As you say, sometimes it can’t be helped. Worrying or berating yourself for a perfectly natural thing, like not having enough energy, just saps your creative resources all the more. And it can be utterly soul destroying.

    I really liked this. The ‘you are here’ reference really made me feel like you were referring to a writing journey, which is what we are all on. Some times we stumble and fall, but we get up and keep going. It may take us a little longer but we will make it to the next goal post in the end!!

    • I am so glad this resonated with you, Lauren! I am having a rough time getting my writerly self motivated and to the keyboard to work on Book 2! So many other things pulling at my attention… I have to remind myself that it doesn’t matter how long it takes us to get there, as long as we get there. 😊

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