When the Muse Speaks
Life can come at us at warp speed sometimes. I just had six non-work days in a row and had planned a lovely stay-cation with lots of books, wine and naps. I needed it. Since early last fall, every day off from my day job found me in some sort of class, tending to a family member’s health, at various appointments, etc. I really needed some true down time. You know the kind – where you don’t have anywhere to be or anything to check off your to-do list.
Unfortunately, the stress levels got too high before I scheduled that kind of time off. So I spent the first four days trying to “relax” and make the heart palpitations stop. I had trouble sleeping. I didn’t even really have good naps! I didn’t feel restored.
The last two days off, I started working on a new quilt project. I let myself wallow in my fabric stash. I managed to find about 80% of the necessary fabric right in my own sewing room. I allowed myself a trip to the fabric store in the rain to buy a few yards of accent fabric, muslin for backing and batting.
I spent hours bonding with my pile of scraps, a cutting mat and a rotary cutter and just listened to the rain on the roof. No music or TV in the background, just the rain and some chortling from one of the cats.
It felt like coming home.
Why do we let our lives get so busy and stressful before we allow ourselves deep quiet? Do we not realize how much the added stress compounds our daily issues? It makes trying to relax and carving out some much-needed alone time a very complicated process.
The night before I came back to work, I didn’t sleep well. I tossed and turned for hours. When I did finally fall asleep, I had very strange and vivid dreams filled with people from work. Obviously, my subconscious was trying to process the fact that the vacation was drawing to a close.
I need to promise myself to not wait for my next vacation day to find this quiet mind that I rediscovered. I need to go to that peaceful place on a weekly if not daily basis. Maybe then, my creativity will blossom and I will find the energy to work on my next book…
My muse has spoken.